The contrary winds blew and I must say that I got a bit confused at what God was saying…
Our last definite directive and peace was to follow what my dr. was saying. But, as soon as I came back from a healing seminar (in which the roots and causes from medical doctors) of Endometriosis were discussed and prayed against, there were a lot of contrary winds that then came. They came in the form of well-meaning people and those whom ‘sensed’ that God was telling us to go a different direction; to cancel our appointment. Those asking if I really needed to get the operation. I know these people love us and want what is best for us but, it came down to us hearing and following God ourselves. The very next day or so after returning home I opened up a medical book I had bought and what was before my eyes, the testimony of a woman who had canceled her operation and that moment the pain of endometriosis disappeared and she was healed that very hour. I did struggle with the fact that If I believed that God had cut the inlet of endometriosis off in my life, why am I going to get this operation. Am I lacking in faith?
I just had to lay it all out on the table before God and dispel any overwhelming confusions. God is not a God of confusion. God I will go either way. We just wanted to go where He wanted us. I had complete peace you see. He had given it to me the moment He told me to listen to my doctor, even with the surgery. I told Him I just wanted to hear for ourselves what He was saying and I asked Him to make it very clear to us. I put my trust in my husband and stepped forward in that. We brought our concerns before some trusted church leaders and they encouraged; what did God tell you… So, we went with the peace and where He had guided us in the first place. He had not told us otherwise.
The Night before the surgery on my way to Worship, God gave me this revelation from the book of Acts, verses I haven’t thought much about. God gave me recollection of Paul the Apostle, how he by the spirit knew he was to go to Jerusalem. Then he had some that would prophesy to him not to go! But, as he began his journey he received word from God that he was indeed to go to. It was very encouraging to me. That we sensed God was telling us to go, though much had come in direct opposition to that. But, God had other plans and for the one hearing – Paul…He was being directed not by well-meaning people but by the Holy Spirit. They that were ‘in spirit’ seemed to see the persecution Paul would go through but used their human interpretation of the spirits prophesy.
So, we headed forward with peace in Him… and after this decision was made He confirmed it to us in other ways and through other people whom we trust.
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21 After all this had happened, Paul decided[a] to go to Jerusalem, passing through Macedonia and Achaia. “After I have been there,” he said, “I must visit Rome also.” Acts 19:21
22 “And now, compelled by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. Acts 20:22
We sought out the disciples there and stayed with them seven days. Through the Spirit they urged Paul not to go on to Jerusalem. Acts 21:1-6
After we had been there a number of days, a prophet named Agabus came down from Judea. 11Coming over to us, he took Paul’s belt, tied his own hands and feet with it and said, “The Holy Spirit says, ‘In this way the Jewish leaders in Jerusalem will bind the owner of this belt and will hand him over to the Gentiles.” 12 When we heard this, we and the people there pleaded with Paul not to go up to Jerusalem. 13 Then Paul answered, “Why are you weeping and breaking my heart? I am ready not only to be bound, but also to die in Jerusalem for the name of the Lord Jesus.” 14 When he would not be dissuaded, we gave up and said, “The Lord’s will be done.” 7-16
11 The following night the Lord stood near Paul and said, “Take courage! As you have testified about me in Jerusalem, so you must also testify in Rome.” Acts 23:11
